Not living the true life I was born to live …

Last month, a dear friend confronted (and encouraged!) me to become the woman I already am. That is, to remember who I am in Christ and then grow up even more into Him Who is my Head.

I heard her words as I read Aunt Jane’s Hero and considered how she described the protagonist:

– He had been drinking at broken fountains, but felt sure that the world had some full ones which sooner or later would quench his thirst.
– … in spite of himself had his hours of reflection, when there came to him uncomfortable intimations that he was not living the true life for which he was born.
– … the awful sense that he was not, in any sense, living for the glory of God, but simply to and for himself.
– He felt the old discomfort creeping over him, the sense of unrest experienced, at times, at least, by every human soul that tries to satisfy its infinite longing and yearnings with finite things.

And at his time of conversion …

– “Am I ready to die? How do I know that I ever made my peace with God? What has there been in my life to prove it?” And a dismal answer came back to him, declaring that it was now too late to decide such momentous questions; too late! too late! And then he gave himself up to the fever and the pain and the exhaustion that claimed him as their own, and resigned himself to his fate.
 – “Leave me to die,” he said faintly. “I have no mother, no wife to lament me, and hundreds of these poor fellows have.” “We will save you, if we can, to gain in the future what you have not had in the past.” And then, amid untold anguish, Horace was jolted in a crowded ambulance to the hospital.
– He emerged from this great tribulation into the light. “I am now at peace,” he said. “I have done fighting with the Lord and have put myself, just as I am, into His hands. I could not have believed they were such tender hands.”

Dear God, please give me grace this day to life the true life I was born to live.
To grow in grace and conformity to Christ.
To become the woman I already am.

Amen & Amen