So what do you do when it’s rainy/snowy????

I’ve been trying to get up super early every morning to take Lili for a long walk. (Did I tell you guys that I read “The Dog Whisperer” and he’s ALL about dog walking being ABSOLUTELY ESSENTIAL for training dogs? Well, anyway, I read it and bought into it hook line and sinker–so there we are, walking away.)

And recently, I’ve been TRYING to THEN go to the gym for “real” exercise before Fred gets to work. (Can you see how far I have to go in my health goals? Eeek!)

But then there was today …

It was RAINING when I woke up around 5:30. Rain that actually quickly turned to SNOW.
(Hmmmmmmmmmm ….)

AND I had this snuggly, kind, handsome husband next to me ….
So rather than walk in the rain and the suffer through 45 minutes on the elliptical trainer …
We just talked.
(OK, cuddled a bit too–but really? Just talked.)

I cried a bit (of course). He was hopeful and calm as usual. (Oh! That Fred.)
I wondered why he didn’t despise me–as messed up as I can be–and he just let me be me, but kept pointing me to who I really am (not who I feel like so often).

I’m finding a lot of comfort in Fred’s words these days.
I get so scared! And I’m tempted to freak out so easily.
And MAN do I get frustrated with myself.
And he says, “Tara, you are being sanctified.”

And that’s it.
‘Tara, you are being sanctified.’
 Period.

No big sermon—no long prayer. Just five words—but he’s reminding me of SO MUCH in those words:

1. There is a God.
2. I am His.
3. God is holy AND compassionate.
4. I am holy before God because of Christ–but I am also GROWING more holy BECAUSE God is at work in me.
5. Along the way, as He sanctifies me, God does not despise me–He has compassion towards me.
6. This life is nothing but a constant death!!!!! But this life does not go on forever. One day we get to go Home.
7. Really? Deep down? Ultimately? I’m OK. I’m going to be OK. No matter what my feelings or circumstances tell me. God is bigger than all of this and all of that.
8. So quit worrying! Stop your fretting and whining! Get your eyes off of yourself and get back in the battle of faith.

Amen & Amen
(And thanks, Fred.)

Happy Rainy, Snowy Tuesday, All!

Love you,
Tara B.