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Recovering from My (Lifetime of) Disordered Eating (Disordered Affections Part 1)

Many of my 2016 events are related to my new retreat on disordered affections. This teaching content has really been born out of my lifetime problems with food. (Ever since my pacifier was dipped in white sugar to sooth me as a newborn with multiple birth defects, I have always been comforted by sugar. This is not good—physically or emotionally! I was able to keep it relatively in …

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Please don’t confront me on being fat. Again. (Oh wait. But YOU? Yes, please confront me.)

Well. It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged on any topic with any level of consistency, but the ol’ “How is Tara doing with her habitual struggles with making an idol out of food / gluttony / weight loss / weight gain” topic? Yeah. It’s been crickets around here re: all of that, even though my real-life friends can tell (by my uncomfortably, …

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If Only I Had Thin Arms, Then My Marriage Would be Perfect

Towards the end of our school year, I was watching my dear friend (who happens to be very beautiful and very petite) stack our lunch chairs and vacuum our crumbs. As she worked, I thought to myself: “If only I had thin arms like her, then everything would be perfect. Especially in my marriage. MAN! It must be SO easy …

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It’s a Grace to be Fat (redux)

[Re-posted from October 2013] Today we are getting our family photos taken and a part of me is looking forward to capturing what I hope will be a more feminine and attractive photo than last year. But even as I compare a recent photo of myself to one from our family photo shoot last year (the one on the left …

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They Speak Best Who Speak the Worst of Sin

  From the Puritan Classic, The Sinfulness of Sin, by Ralph Venning: “It cannot but be extremely useful to let men see what sin is: how prodigiously vile, how deadly mischievous, and therefore how monstrously ugly and odious a thing sin is.” “Sin is the true cause of death.” / Sin is ‘Hamartia’ Ancient Greek: ἁμαρτία – sin in the abstract …

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Dealing with Pain by Turning to the Very Thing that CAUSES Our Pain

Where do you turn when you are stressed, disappointed, hurt, lonely, or just plain bored? How do you deal with your pain? Do you turn to God in right worship? Pour out the cries of your heart to Him? Grieve, wail, lament? Beg, plead, intercede? Just sit silent in exhaustion and fear and be? Or do you turn to some sort of secondary agent? …

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(Still) Recovering from a Lifetime of Disordered Eating

I have lived for ten+ years now as an obese woman. (With a sweet couple of years in there of making some progress on my spiritual and physical health goals … but then, as is so often the case, losing ground very rapidly. Bummer.) It’s a very strange thing for me to be so overweight. I didn’t used to be. …

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Don’t Be Afraid to Try Again

It’s New Year’s Eve. Time for resolutions (or passionate words about NOT making resolutions). Many of us probably feel pretty awful about “the holidays.” Again. – We resolved to not overspend, but we did. So now our credit card debt is worse than before. – We promised ourselves that this year our (mother-in-law / daughter-in-law / father / sister / brother / …

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Just in case (like me!) you’re tempted to give yourself a “TOTAL BREAK” re: the HOLIDAYS and FOOD …

I know that not all of you struggle with the habitual sins of gluttony and/or turning to food for emotional/spiritual comfort (idolatry). So if you’re one of those people who are just looking forward to the treats and pleasures of this holiday season without concerns over your spiritual and physical health, I say—Hooray! Great. Enjoy and see ya’ in January. But for …

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Even I am starting to see a difference …

No matter what, I am SO grateful for the growth I am experiencing spiritually and the stability I am experiencing emotionally as I continue to turn away from my disordered affections. Beyond a shadow of a doubt, I am extremely grateful to have much LESS knee and back pain and for much MORE energy and stamina physically. (Lilikoi likes that a …

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